"Diluted"

I'm cold, I'm ugly
 I'm always confused by everything
 I can stare into a thousand eyes
 But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
 
 It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
 My heros are dead, they died in my head
 Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
 Something inside me has opened up again
 
 Thoughts of me exemplified
 All the little flaws I have denied
 Forget today, forget whatever happened
 Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
 I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
 
 What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
 (x2)
 
 I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
 Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
 Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
 I decrease, while my symptoms increase
 
 God what the fuck is wrong
 You act like you knew it all along
 Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
 
 All I ever wanted out of you was
 something you could never be
 Now take a real good look at
 What you've fucking done to me
 
 What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
 (x2)
 
 (SAMPLE)
 I'm gonna fuck the living.
 (x2)
 
 Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy
 Gimme any reason why I'd need you
 Gimme any reason why I'd need you
 Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
 Gimme any reason why I'd need you, bitch
 Gimme any reason why I'd need you
 Gimme any reason why I'd need you
 Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
 
 I see you in me
 (x8)
 
 I keep my scars from prying eyes
 Incapable of ever knowing why
 Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer
 Why am I so fascinated by
 bigger pictures, better things
 But I don't care what you think
 You'll never understand me
 
 What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?
 (x4)
 
 FUCK!!!