"Mother of Light"

It always put me on the edge, 
To think of all the spoilt lives 
Today I’m one step further 
Not sure if I’ve survived myself 

Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction 
Whatever happens in my dreams 
I know it can’t be worse than this 
So I prefer to sleep 

I am searching 
~ without vision ~ 
For the answers in the dirt 

I am waiting 
~ just for nothing ~ 
For the day that I’ll be heard 

You’re the sea in which I’m floating 
And I lose myself in you 
I am feeling these sensations 
I communicate with you 

I am looking 
~ without vision ~ 
For a different kind of way 

I am thinking 
~ just for nothing ~ 
About that specific day 

You’re the night so you’re the dark side 
Of the day you’ll never see 
You’re the past but everlasting 
Can you share one day with me? 

You’re the hand that I rejected 
But I can’t forgive myself 
I am selfish and not worthy 
To think of, even to die for 

Tomorrow, don’t know where I’ll be 
I need some place to go now 
So do you know the way I feel 
Or shall I give up my belief? 

You’re the lock I’ve never opened 
‘Cause I threw away the key 

I’m enclosed within my own thoughts 
That will never set me free 

You’re the question to the answer 
And without there’ll never be 
Any thought in this direction 
You’ve created this in me 

Serenity is taking over all I am, it gives me peace 
And all I see are visions of my destiny 
Why should I bleed and pay for the others’ greed? 

We consciously sign our own sentence of death 
How can you go on, did you forget 
What we have learnt from the past? 
We can’t go on killing ourselves 
And with us all the rest 
Why can’t you see, don’t you regret? 

I am alone with all my thoughts 
Alone without a hope and 
I lost the thing I needed most 
I feel I can’t survive this fall